I'm not kinda person to speak out the stuff deep down inside their heart! l'm not quite sure that someone would understand. These two years, i've been through a lot. Maybe it's not a big deal to you, but it really means a lot to me!
I try to learn, and i get matureal, i know that! Nowadays, i know i can't always get what i want, it would be influenced by circursrounding. And i get along with people well, i can't always sale my points to them, we grow up in different backgroud, we have different worldview.......Yeah, i have my life style, and they have theirs. We should try to respect each others different.
Also, i found out that i'm scared to love ( loving someone or be loved by someone). I don't know how to make it work! While i fall in love with someone, i feel uncomfortable, always have to do something that i don't wanna to, always need to considerate for him, to satisfy his demand, really makes me tired! In love, i've rather thought it's a trouble than a sweet thing! The most important is that i'am not quite intresting both in male and female! Some sort of loving-disability!
